That's Real Sweet....

Received a message from the renal nurses this afternoon congratulating me on my positive pregnancy test. Apparently they were just as curious about my test results, so had it traced, and told me the news right away.

It's funny how they said they were excited to find out about the good news and urged me to see the doctor this Tuesday, instead of waiting for my appointment.

I'm trying to enjoy being pregnant, knowing that I'm pregnant, but at the same time, at the back of my mind, I'm also a little anxious about the baby and also about my kidney. Especially since I haven't been drinking as much as I usually do. I hope everything will go well.

Tbc...

There's been alot on my mind obviously... what with studying for the exams, attending the seminars, extra classes... that 'other' thing... I'm really drained, physically, mentally and emotionally.

Sent my urine test on Monday, got help from one of my friends to check the results and of course, undeniably it is definitely positive. Took another home pregnancy test again that night, just so I can take a picture of the positive result, but then found out that my camera isn't working!

I've started to accept the fact that I am pregnant. There, I said it, I'm pregnant. Well and truly knocked up... heheheh! My mom's already started on all the do's and don'ts. Everytime we talk bad about someone, especially in terms of appearance, tutup pusat (cover my belly button), like it's gonna stop the bad things from reaching the baby! hehehe! might as well cover my ears and shut my mouth. Eat coconut flesh, so your baby will be fair. Eat lots of red meat so you'll get a baby boy, don't stand in the doorway, so that your baby won't get stuck when you deliver. Oh my! Old wive's tale?

The only thing I believe in is starting to read surah Yusuf (so your baby will be beautiful), surah Maryam (so you will have an easy labour/delivery).

Anyhow, I know I've been drinking lime juice all the time, everyday. This baby is really asking for some Vitamin C! Other than that I've not really had morning sickness or anything. Maybe really, really mild nausea like when I first get to the office in the morning, but nothing Hacks or Tic Tac can't remedy. No vomiting at all, just a little pleghmy in the morning, which makes me gag a bit. But that's about it really.

Can't imagine how I will look like in a few months time. If my calculations are correct I think I'm just under 2 months, so maybe by the time my birthday rolls around I think I will definitely show. Well, to tell the truth, I've always had a tummy anyway! Hehehhe! I'm gaining weight by the day... if I weren't pregnant, I'd definitely be hitting the gym already.

We'll see how things go. Just can't wait til the hubby comes back home...

The Cat's Out of the Bag...

Well, maybe just the head....

I guess I couldn't keep the news from my husband any longer. So sent him a message this afternoon...I guess he was in a bit of a shock, but then the news sank in, he was excited, then worried... wanted me to go to the doctor then and there! Heheh!

May our prayers be answered...

Then, next thing you know my mum in law called, then later that night my sisters in law, then mum told my brother cos he was in the room when I was on the phone. Oh boy...I'm thinking I should have my test this Monday, instead of the following week, just to confirm everything sooner...

Emotional roller coaster!

Changes...Hoping for Changes...

So, Sunday, had Mandi Berlawat function next door to celebrate my cousin's first baby girl. Chatted with her older sister about how she found out she was 2 months pregnant too with her second.

So that night I began to wonder, I mean I have missed my period October and November, and I have been feeling a bit woozy in the mornings. My tic tacs and sweeties are never far from reach. And I have been craving and drinking lime juice for the past couple of weeks. So, I decided to find out online what the symptoms of being pregnant are. I mean, although my periods have been regular after the transplant, it has been a bit wonky since September, so the missed periods didn't really bother me.

Anyhoo, there were a few nifty quizzes online which asks you questions and in the end, sort of give you an idea of if you were preggers on not. So, I think I tried maybe about 5, and most of them basically says that I showed symptoms of pregnancy, but to know for sure I need to have a pregnancy test, and that the easiest was to do a home pregnancy test. Ok, so that's it then, will get those tests tomorrow. Why did I have to do the quizzes? I just wanted to be convinced to get the test, because I just didn't want to be disappointed, and know for sure I wasn't pregnant.

So, (how many times have I used so so far... ahahah!). So, made up my mind, will drop by Guardian Pharmacy tomorrow, and get me a couple of the test kits.

Monday rolls around, left the office around 5 or so, got stuck in traffic in Gadong, then with nervous but purposeful strides, made my way to Guardian. Wanted to find the test myself, but in the end asked the girl at the counter. Note - it is under Personal Care. The last time I took a pregnancy test was when we first got married 6 years ago, and even then my husband got them for me.

So got a couple of the Clear Blue ones, and paid for them. Let me tell you though, if you're planning to get these tests, it would be a good idea to go with your husband or mom, cos buying it yourself, I kinda got the feeling the girls at the counter were thinking... well, you know... 'why is she alone? did she have an accident?' or maybe it was just my imagination. I mean, I look like a married old womon, right. My imagination. So, relieved I got that over with, rushed back home, cos I really needed to pee anyway.

Got home, rushed to my room, read the instructions quickly, easy enough, pee on the absorbent bit for 5 seconds, leave it for 1 minute, then + if you're pregnant and - if you're not! Tore open the packaging, sat down and peed, basically peed all over the stick, cos my bladder was damn full. Left it for the required minute, then, nervous, nervous, is it a plus? I mean the horizontal line isn't very clear, but the vertical line is SO clear and blue. So is it positive? Must be right?! I mean, if it was negative, even though the horizontal line was faint, at least there wouldn't be a vertical line, it would just be a faint, horizontal line, which shows a -. Right? But this is a plus, right, there's a faint horizontal line, and a definite vertical line, yes. A PLUS. Hehehehe! I was so excited! Haaaaaappyyyyy.... am I really pregnant? Oh god, oh god! Please, please let me be pregnant!



So, excited as I was, decided to take another test a couple of hours later. And, yup, it was still the same faint horizontal and clear vertical line. I am pregnant. I am, right? I am... oh god! I just want to be absolutely sure! Wished my husband was here. If he was, I would just oh! leave the stick by the tub and let him find it... surprise!! Heheheh! Oh god... I need to see a doctor. I want to tell someone, but resisted the urge to send a message to my husband, until I am totally sure. Ooooohhhh...it's so difficult!! I'm just fantasising about ways to tell him.. hehehehhe! READ THIS!!! hahhahha!

So, the next day, after lunch, showed the 2 sticks to my mum, and asked her if I am indeed pregnant. She seems to think so!!

So, waiting game now... my next blood test is on the 8th. I think I will slip in pregnancy test on this one... fingers crossed. Wish us luck!